Hi,

I'm Cecilia. Cecilia Lisbon. I'm the youngest of the 5 Lisbon girls in our family. I'm 13. People like to think I'm crazy because I don't act "normal". I'd like to think I'm quietly intellectual. They think I'm insane because I actually think. Frankly, I don't care if they think I'm odd.

Life is hard, really hard. I'm scared for the rest of my life. I was once told that I dont know how hard life gets, that I'm only 13.

I've been thinking alot about guys. I think it's good to stay pure and not have sex. The Virgin would be proud. Girls, even my own sisters, get caught up in boys. It kinda ruins life, doesn't it?

The other day I was standing in the street,in my dress, watching the fish flies. They are these little bugs that swarm and destroy everything in their path. The only catch is, that they only live 24 hours. They die and heeps of them line the streets. Everywhere you look there's these massive piles of them. They only live 24 hours..thats all.

Its a little like us, you know, we never know how long we have, we never know how bad it'll get after we're gone. It just makes me think.